suicide the more things go on the more I think about it

Hello,

Compared to Marie Jeanne, whom I support with all my heart—well, with whatever is left of it—I have nothing to complain about, and yet I assure you that I do.
A few days ago, Josy told you about the problems with my mother and my daughter, and it's still going on, and I don't care.
I have problems with my mother-in-law, who spreads lies about me. I am asking my husband to move because I can no longer stand living in the city next to my mother-in-law. To top it all off, I am getting remarks at my son’s school because I am not supposed to let him have a water bottle, and I am getting dirty looks. I am supposed to enroll my second son in kindergarten this year, and I am wondering if I will do it. When I explain this to my husband, he allows himself to yell at them from afar. I have been asking him to move for three years and he refuses. Just now I told him we are either moving or we are divorcing, and he replied, “We are divorcing.” But what a jerk—excuse me, but I needed to say it. And to make matters worse, this baby I want but who refuses to come. I don’t think I should be pitied compared to some people, but when the nerves give out, they give out. It is true that I am seriously thinking about suicide, but I think about it and I see my two sons, aged 5 and 3, and I see that they need me and that they need to form a good opinion of their mother. But I can’t take it anymore. Either the people I hang out with are stupid and idiots, or I don’t understand anything about life. So why live it? Yes, just for my three children who are left to me.
I hope I haven’t been too silly or stupid, but I needed to confide in someone.
In another post, Question Rolande 2311, whom I greatly admire, asked me for what real reason I wanted this baby. It is because I want it for myself and also because it will help me stay afloat and stop thinking about suicide. I thank Rolande for her responses.
Thank you for reading me

Hey! Hello madam, I am from Montreal and my name is Carole. I read your message and I can tell you that I did not like it. Because I know that life can be very boring, but we never know when happiness will finally arrive, so that we stop crying and are just happy. Who knows, maybe it will be in one second or another… I swear to you that it is worth waiting for that second while learning to see the positive side of this dark part of your life, and believe me, I know what I am talking about. I am 36 years old with a 17-year-old teenager who has no father, and I swear to you that damn, it is worth living. And you, wow, you have two beautiful children who need you with a lot of positivity and not the negativity of this beautiful life. If you do not feel like doing it for yourself, please do it for them. I beg you, let life take its course. For now, God is carrying you in His arms; just try to see the positive side of this adventure. Because you know, it is impossible to have a negative without a positive… And as for the husband, well!!! It is up to him… Cry your pain but do not give up, I beg you… Come on, courage, my beautiful one. After the storm, the sun always reappears, even warmer than before the storm, I promise… A person who tells you to give yourself a chance xxxx

              P.S. Merci car tu ma aider aujourd'Hui merci encore...  Et tu sais des fois et pas mal toujours la jalousie fait dire au gens des méchancité et il devienne tres accaparente mais ne t'en fait car ses eux les malheureuse alors donne leur de l'amour et un sourire et vas voir le changement ne perment pas aux autre de controlé ta vie car tes énergies gardes les pour toi et ceux qu'ils t'aiment pour vrai...Et je te jure qu'ils en a qui t'aimentxx

Good evening, Olivette

It broke my heart when I read your post.

I know how you feel, don't give up, what will your children do without you, can you imagine not having a mother anymore, they need you to show them the way in their future life and no one else can do it better than you.

I know that when you're at the bottom of the abyss, nothing matters anymore, not even the people you love most. For a human being, it's easy to run away from all these problems, and that's understandable—it's so easy. But know that you are strong and that you will get through this. Take a big kick and rise back to the surface.

Try talking to your doctor, who can help you medically, and believe me, you will put your problems into perspective calmly and be able to resolve them.

Have the will to react and get through this, if only for yourself, for your pride, for your children. Show the others that you can make it without them, that in the end, you don’t need them.

It seems to me that your name is Véronique, just like mine. I know that we are volunteers and fighters, so come on, my dear, we’re not going to let you go just like that.

Big kisses from the south

Véronique

Good evening Olivette,
I want you to know one thing: life must be lived for yourself, and then for the people who matter to you.
We’ve all had dark days, and believe me, only a minority of people have committed suicide, don’t you think? Otherwise, the world would be depopulated of its inhabitants. The slightest problem does not make us potential suicides.
Whether your husband leaves or stays will not change anything about your worries, so do not base your life on him, nor on the baby you want and hope for. You realize that you are not doing well, my dear Olivette. I am not saying this to hurt you; on the contrary, I want you to realize that there is a problem and that the much-anticipated baby will only be an added burden in your daily life, which is not so rosy. You have responsibilities to take on: you have young children, aged five and three, and you cannot deprive them of your presence and your image as a loving, strong mother, etc.
The people who annoy you, you either stop seeing them or deny them; it’s the easiest way, but show them that you’re not that little Véronique who thinks about suicide at the slightest setback. Tell yourself that there are people even more miserable than you, or people who are much better off than you. You’ve experienced the past, you’re living the present, and make sure your future is better than everything, all without thinking about suicide.
So I’m eagerly awaiting a different development and resolution than the one you had decided on, okay?
I wish you a good evening, Ladysally

I thank you all, Caroline, Véronique, Lady Sally, and Rolande. It is true that I think about it, but I love my three children too much to do that. If I did, they would suffer for the rest of their lives, constantly asking themselves questions. And as the lovely Canadian says, the clouds will pass and the sun will come out. I think I had a real stroke of luck and good fortune in reading your posts.
Thank you, ladies. May God protect you and grant you more luck. Thank you!!
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Good evening Olivette,

Thank you for listening to our advice, which you could have just as easily dismissed by saying “I don’t care, I’m doing what I want,” etc. >:(
A wise decision, Olivette, for you, for your children, and to tell the whole world that you are here, that you exist, and that you will carry on with your little, precious life without interruption.

Come whenever you like, you are always welcome, Olivette, and hearing from you is always a great pleasure.

Sincerely
Ladysally

Good evening, Olivette!

As Ladysally so well put it, your life is for you to live. Your little ones need you. They are the same age as my little children, and I couldn't imagine my chicks without their mother, the treasures.

So think of yourself and only yourself; people say what they say, what will people think, you don’t care. It’s not the gossip that lives your life, it’s you.

Each of us has had our sorrows, but we must learn to put them aside and keep only the joys in our hearts, and each of your children is a great joy.

Personally, I’ve buried all the painful parts of my past—what people call bad memories—deep in the attic of my memory. And woe to anyone who tries to bring them back up. Well… not quite, actually, because it’s my mom who’s the most likely to do that.

So hang in there and climb back up.
Courage

Thank you, ladies, but you are right: I bury my problems, and beware of anyone who tries to dig them up. My children are my life, so here I am, back on my feet.
Thank you, ladies.
See you soon

Hello Olivette

Well done, you're starting to get your head above water.

All you have to do is want it to be able to do it; a wise decision, keep up the momentum.

affectionate kisses

Véronique

Dear Olivette,
I read you and recognized myself just two months ago; everything went wrong, I mean everything, but know that nothing compares to life and nothing compares to your children. Leave the gossip behind. I know it’s easy to say, but one day you wake up and you tell yourself “how beautiful life is.” I know what you mean when you say your husband doesn’t support you; I have the same at home! My kids think of me as “the strict mother” because I’m the only one who says what I think out loud, so they no longer go through me when they want something; they only go through their father. I’m lucky to have a job where I can give a lot of affection and receive it in return, which fills a void, but don’t waste your life for others. Jealousy makes people talk, misunderstanding makes people talk, and intolerance does too. Let it go, live for yourself and your little ones. As for wanting a baby for yourself, I don’t know if it’s a good idea; take stock of your relationship and then see. I don’t know if I was able to help a little, but know that I will continue to follow your writings. Courage! EVE.

Thank you, Eve,
But the baby is exactly what I want; I crave it and desire it more than anything in the world.
On the other hand, you see, my children turn to me more than to their father, but I thank you, and I told myself that all that bunch of women can stay in their corner and I in mine.
Thank you, Eve

Hello Olivette,

You are going through an important period; it will make you more mature and stronger. It is a turning point. I too thought about it for a moment, for a split second, but oh, how it unbalances you—that moment when you wish you no longer existed, when you feel worthless, incapable, drained. But fortunately, it passes, and it is often a rebirth. Your desire for a child is already a great call to life. To give life, to create—you have all the resources and the courage. Hold onto that precious gift. You will see, things will become clearer. You will get through this; it is a moment when your perspective changes. Accept this change. Look at your children living, laughing, singing. Breathe in their love; it is already a beautiful gift. Listen to the happiness that joins you with ease and tenderness.
No matter what is going on around you, everything comes from within, and that is full, that is enormous; let all of this wash over you. Life is worth living, and yours matters. Don’t let go of your children’s hands; so many precious things await you, and beautiful encounters.
You will make it.
I'm sending you some comfort
Marie

Thank you, Marie.