Hello,
I hope you're doing well at the start of summer!
I’m getting back to you with some updates, as I mentioned. I also have a few questions about “Indigo children (or crystal or light children)” that I’d like to ask you, in order to exchange thoughts, if you’re up for it (?).
First of all, I wanted to tell you that my art therapy thesis defense went VERY BADLY, as far as I can remember (it was yesterday afternoon). At least, my perception of it is very negative, with the feeling that the panel did not simply play the role of the stern jury testing the candidate's ability to receive criticism. Rather, I got the impression of a lack of tact, of widespread ill will, and of a desire to disrespect me and to distort my statements (those in my thesis) or to denigrate my work without taking the time to let me argue and explain what had been misunderstood or that I may have expressed poorly in my writing.
Fortunately, I have achieved good, even very good results so far in my Master's in Psychoanalysis, as the panel insinuated that I had not understood art therapy or the psychoanalytic concepts associated with it. 
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I was shocked by such a blatant desire to belittle me and such a misunderstanding or lack of understanding of my work and my professional project.
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They described me as a pretentious, overly confident person who is incompetent, intrusive (regarding a follow-up therapeutic analysis that had been requested for my thesis), and inconsistent.
I am someone who cannot stand gossip and am distant rather than intrusive.
I’m not sure about myself, but I am quite determined when it comes to pursuing a project that is close to my heart.
I am not claiming anything; on the contrary, I am trying to help others if people come to me.
They judged me without knowing me and suggested that I was stupid. It hurt me deeply. I’m crying just writing this, knowing that I helped people during the training who didn’t understand the classes or the concepts and who didn’t even know how to write or speak properly.
Those people were certified.
I don't understand such malice toward me (?).
Could it be due to racial discrimination, a closed mind, or rivalry, given that the jury was composed entirely of women (who appeared somewhat older than me)???
I can't say it, but I felt misunderstood, disrespected, and unfairly judged. Not to mention that I wasn't able to express myself; they weren't listening to me and kept interrupting me.
If it was a staged act to destabilize me, it worked. , 
I managed to stay calm and take it all in without being disrespectful to them in return, as that is not my nature. I regard every human being as my equal and with respect for each one. However, even though I left thanking them for hosting me, once I got home, I was both furious at the injustice I had experienced and deeply depressed afterward, as I had been unable to defend myself and make my case effectively.
I called the director of the training center, who was supposed to be a member of the jury but was not present at the defense and was replaced by his daughter. He told me to wait for the outcome of the deliberation of the said "jury," without, however, acknowledging that he had not fulfilled his role as coordinator regarding the jury and my thesis and professional project, even though he had been aware of my training from the very beginning and had given his approval and encouragement to develop my project, which he fully supported (as he claimed at the time, more than a year and a half ago).
I don't understand his attitude at all today. 
I don’t understand this feeling of having completely failed (and deservedly so) during this oral exam and exchange with the jury, and your clairvoyance regarding obtaining the art-therapist certificate (?)
Did I fail, or am I just imagining things on my own?
Thank you for your clairvoyance, here are my numbers: 3-9-13-22
Otherwise, are you familiar with the hypothesis regarding "Indigo" children, or "light children," also referred to as "crystal children"?
Of course, there is no scientific study on this, but I sometimes think that if such a thing exists, I am one. I have always felt different, not suited for this world, out of step with the values of our Western societies, and more connected to Nature than other people. My values are not those of the majority. I am out of sync, always thinking about improving the condition of children, animals, and the system. I am highly sensitive, and I do not understand malice, gratuitous aggression, or a lack of empathy or open-mindedness, and I cannot align myself with the majority’s opinion, as I often find it mediocre and lacking in spirituality or wisdom, and devoid of a healthy will to change what is wrong, what is harmful, and so on.
My intelligence is more intuitive in nature, even though I am constantly reasoning and reflecting on the state of the world, and I love to understand as much as possible and to study.
I am rather admiring of people who try to innovate to bring comfort and a better quality of life to everyone, especially the oppressed and those who are defenseless or who suffer injustice or a lack of respect.
I realize that people like me (fortunately, there are 
) are people who are often disparaged, rejected, and misunderstood, and who are attacked without reason by people with ill intent.
It saddens and infuriates me; it’s so sad.
Maybe I am one of those Indigo children?
I completely identified with the description of these children and adults who often feel alone throughout their lives, even when surrounded by others.
Do you feel out of step with most people?
Does this hypothesis about Indigo children ring a bell with you?
If so, how do you see it and how did you manage to adapt despite everything?
Thank you in advance for your clairvoyance, your insights, and your exchange (if possible).
Kind regards,
DORA.
