Hi there,
I'm glad to see you again too.. it's a shame that we don't run into each other on the "chat" site like we used to so often.. every time I log on, I unfortunately find no one there
We had a lovely time with Ladyssaly, Cabaret, Barbie, Magic, and others.
I do miss it a bit, I admit.. In any case, I hope you're doing well.. I still have you in my MSN contacts even though I rarely log on, so don't hesitate to send me messages so we can get back together with Ladysally like we used to, share our experiences, and have a good laugh 
Thank you so much for your reply. Indeed, we cross paths once a week (on Fridays) because he doesn't live nearby but works in my town. So at the end of the week, he hangs out with his colleagues at the same café as me (near my workplace and my home). He smiles at me and looks at me, but nothing else. He no longer talks to me, but I needed to know where things stand and where they are headed. Apparently, in your view, he is in the same state of mind as me, and deep down, that reassures me ;). No matter how hard I try to block him out of my mind, it's difficult and uncontrollable. No matter how much I go out, have fun, make plans, etc., and get involved in different areas, my thoughts keep coming back to him all the time like an obsession, and I feel incredibly guilty towards my boyfriend, whom I love nonetheless, and because of his young age (he's 28 or 30, and I turned 40 last month, ugh...).
So thank you for your reply, and if you notice anything else, please don't hesitate to let me know. I'll keep you posted on how this meeting goes. I give you a big hug and see you soon! 