I can no longer trust

Hello everyone
I was reaching out to you to tell you about all my distress. In my life, men have always made me suffer. It started early, too early, and then I learned to grow up more or less with a life that is not great at all, between an alcoholic and depressed father, a sister who died at 15, incest at 8, and so on… Yes, I have a life that is not easy, but I fight by repeating to myself that things can always be worse. Anyway, I met the father of my children at 17. He was the very definition of kindness. Then, at 26, I joined a new company, a job I liked, and that’s when I met this person. He smiled at me, and so on… (My husband, meanwhile, was in a depressive phase, like my dear father, and in the early stages of paranoia, so things were not exactly very cheerful on my end.) He had someone else, said he loved me, and so on… I left everything. He never left his wife. I waited for two years, two long years, for nothing. Yes, because for one year I did not have sex, because he supposedly respected me and said he could not have a relationship with me. I was attractive to men, and I eventually decided to take the initiative, hoping to make him move; and nothing. A bit of reaction, but no action. Since then, I have had four men in my life. The first was really nothing serious. The second could have worked out, but he was also after my money, however small it was. The third wanted to dictate my life too quickly (my life has been dictated to me for nine years, which is not at all what I am looking for). Today, I met someone. I think I love him, but I am afraid. I no longer trust anyone. He is young and handsome (yes, he is only 21). I am 27, with two children. He is present, spends a lot of time with us, but I cannot do it. I have the impression that it is too good. I tell myself that there must be something… something wrong. I no longer know. I do not know…
Thank you for your help, Amelie, born on September 9, 1981.

Hello Ameline,

I will answer here with a simple question to ask yourself, to answer honestly.
Look yourself in the eyes in a mirror if you need to, if it helps.
Do you have faith in yourself?
Do you like yourself? And do you have confidence in the love you have for yourself?
Once you are able to answer yes to these questions, you will find confidence.

Best regards